As I am on my journey of self discovery (finally at lmost 50) I am learning how much I base my value on what I do.  It is hard for me to comprehend someone loving me just for me.  I feel like I have to do something to earn love and when I translate that to my Christian faith I always feel like a failure.  I am coming to understand more and more that God’s love is UNCONDITIONAL.   That means I do not earn it.  My head has always known this but I have not really lived that way.  Devotions, prayer,...

Where Has the Power Gone?

As a young child I remember going to our church prayer meeting on Wednesday nights and hearing the adults pray through the requests and burdens they were carrying.  They would pray over each other and help carry the burden of others that were suffering.  As a child I was usually bored and either sleeping or talking quietly to a friend in the back pew but I remember how fervently the adults prayed together. I don’t see that anywhere any more.  We are all in our own little bubble of spiritual gro...

3 Things I Lived in Fear Of

Psalms 23:4
FEAR This word has been brought to the forefront of my spiritual walk this last week.  Enjoying worship this past week, one of the songs that was highlighted was “No Longer Slaves” by Bethel Music.  One of the lines in that song hit me hard.  I could not sing it.  I could not bring myself to acknowledge before my God that I was “No longer a slave to fear.”  I know that I am a child of God but I still hold back.  I am not as free with my faith as He calls me to be, I don’t always do what He asks...

Lessons from 2017

Beverly Kimball 2017
God is FOR ME not against me I have known this in my mind for a long time but this past year I really understood that everything God asks of me or allows me to go through is not because he is against me or wants me to fail in any way, he is always FOR ME!  Romans 8:31 “What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?”  So we have to ask ourselves do we believe the “if” statement?  If we do, then nothing can stop us from doing what God has called us ...

Time with my best friend

This past weekend I attended a conference and was challenged to do a creative writing exercise.  I am a math teacher, which means I am a very logical, orderly thinker, so this was definitely a challenge for me.  So here it is.  Let me know your thoughts. Being with a close friend is like a warm hug from a grandmother who smells of peppermint and cookies.  That feeling of comfort, peace and acceptance flow from the time I talk with my best friend.  He takes the time to listen as patiently as a...

Leading Ladies

Leading Ladies girl speaking
I have been struggling with how to write this blog for a while now.  I want you to know that I have nothing against women in leadership, women pastor’s and women teaching men.  However, I do have something against some of the attitudes our women leaders have.  As I have studied the bible and looked at women leaders there, they never demanded followers.  They did not expect respect as a leader because they were a woman.  They just did what God asked them to do and people took notice.  Deborah was...

Forbearance – What does that word mean?

Definition of forbearance
We deal with tough people and situations every day.  How do you handle it?  A word that came up in my bible study this week was FORBEARANCE.   According to Merriam-Webster dictionary, forbearance means “the quality of someone who is patient and able to deal with a difficult person or situation without becoming angry.”  As I read that definition a several  things stood out to me. First, is that forbearance is a character quality.  It is not an action but a way of thinking that our actions foll...

Genuine (Fair Week) – Rabbits can teach us a lesson

definition of genuine
This week in Saginaw County, Michigan it is fair time!  I have enjoyed going to the fair since I was a little girl.  My dad always took us to the tractor pulls, horse pulls and of course, the rides.  I entered some crafts in the 4-H program as a child and my children did the same thing.  But with my kids, we had rabbits to show every year.  My husband and I became involved with the rabbit barn and have worked at it for several years.  My children are all done with the 4-H program and have moved ...

Purpose – What was God thinking?

Definition of purpose
In July 1992, I was nine months pregnant with our first son, my husband was graduating from college and we had our first call to a church.  My life was going just as expected.  Ever notice when you feel that way, God has a way of saying “I’m the one in charge, not you?” Well, two weeks before our son was born and we were to move to our new church, we got a call “The church is closed.  You are still welcome to come and help in a restart but there is no longer a congregation here.”  WOW!  I was a...

Fear – Is fear holding us back?

Definition of Fear
We all have a fear of something.  Whether that is spiders, mice, heights or the million other things we can be afraid of.  But what fear in our life is holding us back.  Are we afraid to fail, afraid to be judged, afraid to not fit in, afraid to speak the truth?  Those fears keep us from doing the very things God calls us to do.  I have struggled with this for many years.  My personality wants people to like me.  I like to be a part of whatever group I am with.  BUT, if I let that drive my actio...